Sometimes I just need to chill.
I haven't quite learned how to let go of all the things that really and truly are out of my control.
But I am working on it,
I am a work in progress.
Yes, I have been a little overwhelmed lately.
Possible reasons:
Holidays
Not sleeping well
kid/school issue
traffic tickets
being laid off
missing my friends & family
dark short days....
Can I control any of this? Not really.... Breathe in, Breath out....move on (Jimmy Buffett)
So, how am I dealing since I can't, scratch that WON'T hide under the covers with a bag of cheetos and a kit kat chaser?
I drag my ass out of bed
face the day
go through the motions
try to smile
blast some ani difranco (or any other angry chick music as my DH calls it)
I sure hope this funk passes soon because I can barely stand myself...lol
and I will leave you with this:
And the Grinch, with his Grinch-feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so? It came without ribbons. It came without tags. It came without packages, boxes or bags. And he puzzled and puzzled 'till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before. What if Christmas, he thought, doesn't come from a store. What if Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more.
~ Dr. Seuss
The things that are out of our control are the hardest things! So, just keep trying to move on, chill out, accept what you cannot change and give thanks for what you feel is worthy of thanks!
ReplyDeleteI've come to find...especially over the past few days...that many, many people are finding themselves in unmerry moods and not quite in the holiday spirit. And, everyone who shares that piece of info seems to feel very badly...even guilty...about it! We really do expect ourselves to rise above whatever issues plague us and embrace this spirit because the calendar says we should. Perhaps it's just best not to beat ourselves up about not feeling the feelings that we THINK we should be feeling and just vow to do the best we can with where we are in our lives. If we vow to do that, things won't feel so bad...! Right???
Onward!
Judi
ooh, my favorite ani song is both hands...and untoucheable face. Do you ever listen to limp biskets break stuff? Oooh, thats a great angry song!
ReplyDeleteAhhh hon, I'm so sorry you are having so much trouble right now - and sometimes it just seems to pile and pile on until we can't breathe. Just try to look after you okay? Go for walks (if you can in that wild US weather) and maybe do as Amy said. Play some music.. loud and thrash it out. That works for me sometimes. It gives us a few minutes to just not think of anything and gets us past some bad thoughts.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you xxxx