OMG! It has been over a month since I've posted? I am full of excuses. My computer blue screened and then my blackberry decided I didn't need the "E" key which was part of my password to unlock it. I switched to an android and hated it so I am back in business. Well, with a new blackberry anyway.
There is so much going on and yet it feels very stagnant. I am over two years banded and things there seem okay I am still a few pounds from goal but have not been obsessing about it as there has been so much other crap going on.
Not sure where I left this in other posts but after months of doctors, trips to Portland VA and tests we now know that my husband suffered four major strokes since Feb. They had thought it was a clot from his heart but have now ruled that out and these are true vessel failures and have happened on both frontal lobes. His personality has changed, his memory is bad, its all a little overwhelming. I use that word a lot, I know! I AM OVERWHELMED!
Every day seems to bring a new crisis either with my kids or him. I haven't had time to address any of my own needs in a long while. Sometimes I forget I have any then the guilt takes over... it is a vicious cycle for sure.
Sun is shining in Oregon. I can't tell you how nice that is. I have never been a sun worshiper but I have been trying to relax in the hammock early in the day and just meditate. I have a little color other that ghostly white for the first time in my life. I know how bad it is for me but I don't care! It makes me feel better. (ask me again in ten years when I am having more spots removed) lol
I am doing my best to keep up with you all. I am in love with Draz's post today. I hope to blog something soon or in more detail about how unprepared I was for the band and how I basically went nuts for a year ;/ all kidding aside, I pretty much did as a result of not being able to medicate with food.
Take care xoxo ~ Jen from Oregon
I'm so glad to see you have posted. I miss you. Please take care of yourself. I konw you are doign so much for others, but don't forget about Jen.
ReplyDeleteYay! You're back in business! :) Hang in there. We should meet up for coffee next time you're in town. HUGS!
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear from you! I've wondered how things were going. Glad to hear you're still hanging in there.
ReplyDelete*hugs* Can't imagine all the stuff you've been through in the last month, and how amazing you're doing not creeping back up under all the stress.
ReplyDeleteYou're amazing, Jen. So glad you're back. :)
you sure have a lot going on. I am glad you are putting aside some time for yourself.
ReplyDeleteI am glad you are back and big hugs for everything you are dealing with.
Jen, you are the sweetest blogger.. how could anyone forget you.. you have ALWAYS been so kind to me in your postings.. I am sorry you are going through a tough time right now.. Life Sucks, believe me I know this for sure.. but hang in there sweetie.. things will change.. I am a big believer in fate.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you have been having such a rough few months. I am with you on the sun thing..I don't care about spots..I just need that beautiful vitamin D!
ReplyDeleteIf you ever come up and can meet up for a coffee I can come to you. I think the VA hospital is a short bus ride away from campus.
keep your chin up!
xxxooo
Oh Jen...we could never forget you!! I have been wondering how things were going, and hoping that your Husbands problems weren't going to be that bad. I am so sorry that both of you have to go through this. I am thinking of you...hugs!
ReplyDeleteAnd as for the Sun, I hear you. I am not supposed to be in it (I have already had to have several spots removed...) without major Sunblock on!! LOL And now my latest Blood Work shows very low Vitamin D...I see the Dr about it on Thursday.
I am, and always will be thinking of you. I am glad to hear that you are taking some time for yourself to relax.