My blog has turned into such a dang pity party I don't even want to post anymore.
If I could convey one thing to you all it is that my life has not EVER been like it has been the past few months. I am truly a positive, upbeat, optimistic, strong individual.
a few bullets:
*I'm going to be a Grandma. My youngest son (18) is going to be a father.
Here is what I can do....
Support him, love him, hug him (which I've done more times in the last week that in five years)
* My husbands kidneys are not functioning. Confirmed today. Next week we find out more but looks like further treatment will be in Portland (3.5 hrs away) Hope that is temporary
* I can't stop stuffing my face when I get nervous. I realize it when I am doing it but I don't have a great hold on it.
* the other night I was talking to my BFF and going into all the above and I took my ambien near the start of the call. I got distracted and while chatting and knowing I would hang up soon I took my ambien. AGAIN!
Slept Like A Rock! I split mine and only take half doses, so really it was a full dose and there was no harm except for the pillow wrinkles on my face that lasted half the next day.
So there it is.
I will get through it.
It's Wednesday so here is my sad, sad weekday dish.
yearly mammogram - Have you scheduled yours? Do IT!
three bites of a bacon cheeseburger (no bun)
a few sips of water, not enough for sure (headache, tired, mean)
a half of an orange cream slush from sonic (yes I did)
cheese it chex mix stuff (1/2 cup) I bought a 4lb bag of it when company was here. Sigh
Yup... need to get a handle on this and I will.
<3 ~ Jen