There was this week back in October when I knew I'd had it.
What is it you ask?
I'm not really sure what all "it" entails.
I had been and still am exhausted, extremely anxious, obviously depressed, not sleeping, in pain, having bladder issues (urgency but very little will void) IBS, hand tremors, headaches and sudden (within a month) eye sight change, numbness in pinky and ring finger up to elbow, loss of words and no concentration, deer in headlights response to most questions. Sounds fun, eh?
I'm seeking answers now... There is the fibromyalgia theory (being sent to a Rheumatologist) there is the Urologist who is doing CT scan and cystoscopy, had my eyes tested and my Rx had changed, Trying to get in with neurology for the tremors, numbness to rule out MS. (Which is my biggest fear at the moment)
So this is where I have been, it has kept me from being a good blogger :(
This isn't even where this post was going. this is:
So back in October I told my husband, looking right in the eye, sitting on the corner of the bed, no distractions.
I said "I've hit my physical and mental wall, I've got nothing left"
I've heard nothing, been asked nothing, been offered nothing...
I'm not really sure how I feel about that.