Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Back in October...

There was this week back in October when I knew I'd had it.
What is it you ask?
I'm not really sure what all "it" entails.

I had been and still am exhausted, extremely anxious, obviously depressed, not sleeping, in pain, having bladder issues (urgency but very little will void) IBS, hand tremors, headaches and sudden (within a month) eye sight change, numbness in pinky and ring finger up to elbow, loss of words and no concentration, deer in headlights response to most questions. Sounds fun, eh?

I'm seeking answers now... There is the fibromyalgia theory (being sent to a Rheumatologist) there is the Urologist who is doing CT scan and cystoscopy, had my eyes tested and my Rx had changed, Trying to get in with neurology for the tremors, numbness to rule out MS. (Which is my biggest fear at the moment)

So this is where I have been, it has kept me from being a good blogger :(

This isn't even where this post was going. this is:

So back in October I told my husband, looking right in the eye, sitting on the corner of the bed, no distractions.
I said "I've hit my physical and mental wall, I've got nothing left"

I've heard nothing, been asked nothing, been offered nothing...

I'm not really sure how I feel about that.

19 comments:

  1. So sorry for all ur going thru. What ever it turns out to be I wish u strength, emotionally, as well as physically. And I hope u find the support u need. (((Hugs)))

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  2. So sorry, Jen! I hope it gets better.

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  3. That's really tough. Hang in there and know that there are alot of people out here in the cyber world who are supporting you.

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  4. Thinking of you and hope you get good news...waiting is the worst! Feel better!((hugs))-BG

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  5. Hang in there sweetie....big hugs :)

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  7. Waiting & searching for answers is so hard. Hope you get some answers soon. Hang in there. :)

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  8. Oh honey sending positive vibes your way and hoping they can find and treat your condition quickly. Men are so different when it comes to giving support. I find that when I need emotional support my girlfriends are the best.

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  9. Sorry Jen! So many things to deal with. I hope you feel better and that your husband wakes up.

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  10. So sorry. I almost cried when I read that, more the husband part than the physical, that is so sad, very empty feeling. Then, the physical, shit!
    I hope you can find some answers.

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  11. I hope you found some answers soon, so you can start to feel better. Please keep us posted - we're here for you.

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  12. Jesus Babes - what is all this? It sounds awful. I hope you get some answers soon - no one should have to put up with all that. Let us know. Thinking of you xxxx

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  13. Hang in there!! I hope they figure it all out and you find what needs finding for personal solutions.

    xxxooo and an extra o for good measure.

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  14. *HUGS* Sending you lots of good vibes for a speedy and positive resolution!

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  15. Thinking about you...hang in there! (((Hugs)))

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  16. Thinking of and praying for you.

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  17. I'm sorry you're dealing with all of that. It can add up and put you in the place of complete mental and physical exhaustion. It reminds me of when you have a newborn and you're not sleeping, your mind goes, you can't remember anything, you're in a daze, you're exhausted. Add to that your other pain and I can only imagine how you feel. When can you go to the doctor next? You need mental and physical rest!

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  18. I'm sorry you're going through all this. Frustrating to no end. It's difficult to find answers and solutions, ironically when you have the least amount of energy to do so. Keep me posted?

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  19. go to the doctor sweetie!!! (((hugs)))

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