The hip bones connected to the....
I was scanning myself in the mirror, laughing at what I was wearing (a blue & white stripe shirt with my orange and red striped PJ's all Old Navy finds and I turned to the side and noticed my hip bone was actually visible through my clothes. Don't get me wrong...there is still a lot of padding left but all over my body I am starting to discover my inner frame, The one that has taken & carried the load of my excess weight for years.
I think in my head I always imagined my frame bigger, therefor justifying my overall size, until now. My frame, under this shrinking fat and layers of muscle is of normal.. not small, not manly...but normal size....fascinating!
I'm tall..and that won't change, much. I've lost an inch in the last few years but have spent most of my adult life being just a smidgen under 6' tall.
The point, vague at best, is that I think I am starting to question some of the excuses I've used through the years so I could accept myself and tolerate living at the size I was.
All part of the process I guess!
On a side note:
I received a reply via email to my fireman story that pretty much said I was being disrespectful to my husband in that post and went on to call me a few choice names. I don't know who sent it....but to those of you who read and comment often I will tell you this:
Hubby reviewed my post...and laughed before I posted it (when I walked up to him in the store...I said "Sorry, I got distracted" and he said "I figured as much"...
and at the end of the day Hubby is who got to put my fire out if ya know what I'm saying...
So bite me anonymous e-mailer